FayeObs
8th Apr 2009, 05:50 PM
It breaks my heart to write this as i still dont think ive come to terms about the poor decisions i made.
I bought dolly around the age of 16, she was more or less bought from the field as was very fat. She was very strong and the lady had lost confidence. I loved her at first sight, and we bought her.
She was my 4th Horse, she was 15.3hh and i could see potential. I spent all my time with her, refused to spend time with friends because i'd choose a day at the yard over friends.
We over came great challenges. She wasnt great in solo hacking, we over came that and she trusted me hold heartedly. We's play hide and seek and she'd run to me on call. Shes all i ever thought about, we'd go hacking for hours just her and me. We went to local shows & enjoyed spending time together.
About 4 years in and i started spending less time down at the yard and in my eyes neglected her of my love. I was as quick as i could be and often just spent an hour down there instead of the full days. Boys had entered the scene... and i'd chosen them over my bestest friend in the world. If i was ever upset i'd only have to look at her to feel happy.
I eventually realised it was doing her no favours and i wanted no commitment. I sold her and kept in touch for a short time. I went to see her and as soon as i shouted she looked up and pelted up the field.... when i was leaving she was whinneying me to come back... with tears streaming down my face i drove off and i knew then i'd made the biggest mistake of my life.
I rung up another year later as i knew i had to break the contact cause the pain was too hard. The lady told my that she'd had to be PTS. I broke down and felt so guilty. My best friend gone and there was nothing i could do.
RIP baby girl. I miss you like mad and im sorry i gave you up for the sake of some stupid childhood loves. You were my only love..... xxxxxxxx
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I bought dolly around the age of 16, she was more or less bought from the field as was very fat. She was very strong and the lady had lost confidence. I loved her at first sight, and we bought her.
She was my 4th Horse, she was 15.3hh and i could see potential. I spent all my time with her, refused to spend time with friends because i'd choose a day at the yard over friends.
We over came great challenges. She wasnt great in solo hacking, we over came that and she trusted me hold heartedly. We's play hide and seek and she'd run to me on call. Shes all i ever thought about, we'd go hacking for hours just her and me. We went to local shows & enjoyed spending time together.
About 4 years in and i started spending less time down at the yard and in my eyes neglected her of my love. I was as quick as i could be and often just spent an hour down there instead of the full days. Boys had entered the scene... and i'd chosen them over my bestest friend in the world. If i was ever upset i'd only have to look at her to feel happy.
I eventually realised it was doing her no favours and i wanted no commitment. I sold her and kept in touch for a short time. I went to see her and as soon as i shouted she looked up and pelted up the field.... when i was leaving she was whinneying me to come back... with tears streaming down my face i drove off and i knew then i'd made the biggest mistake of my life.
I rung up another year later as i knew i had to break the contact cause the pain was too hard. The lady told my that she'd had to be PTS. I broke down and felt so guilty. My best friend gone and there was nothing i could do.
RIP baby girl. I miss you like mad and im sorry i gave you up for the sake of some stupid childhood loves. You were my only love..... xxxxxxxx
http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j245/Fayeobs/img009.jpg
http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j245/Fayeobs/img010.jpg