Im such a sap!"Pulls self together"

[*IcyRider*]

Was going to put this up earlier but been feeling abit :(



Doey came over with her mum and we had a wonderful time she rode Sessa,made her go really nicely to! Anyway after she left a friend ive not seen for gosh 2-3 years came down to the yard and the first thing she said was "Wheres your little black horse" :( Really set me off and i spent about 10 mins crying before i could answer :o



Isit just me being a sap do you guys who have lost them still find it oober hard to talk about them.I think she felt really bad bless her.


Not sure what it was that made me react that way,think im so worried about Sól and this bubba im starting to crack abit!


No reason for anything to go wrong but i seem to have this mental block on it all! :rolleyes: :o

[Soot]

do you guys who have lost them still find it oober hard to talk about them.

I'm the opposite. I want to talk about Rambo all the time. I talk about him like he's still here and half the time some part of me believes he's still here. I can talk about him with a big smile, but it's only because I ever think about him being gone. If I think about him being gone or talk about his death, the tears come immediately :(

(hugs) It's hard.

[leah&lydia]

Aww. Im a stupidly emotional person, god i cry at anythin + everythin + i cant help it ! Your not alone. :)
I had a dog tragically die of cancer 4 years ago or so now, id grown up with him by my side. He was an amazing dog as he was my first. I tear up wen i think of him + his ways, but i can never change fate. It was his time to go + i hav 2 respect that. I still miss him today, i always will. RIP Jed. X

[ginakatie]

Hi, I know you're probably after your friends replies but I was just wondering (without wanting to upset you) the background to this.

Was the 'little black pony' your old horse.

If so, I can understand. I had my friend over today to ride my horse as I'm having a major confidence crisis but me and this same friend used to share a horse 3/4 years ago when she was the nervous one. Our horse a chesnut tb mare, was a recipe for disaster (!!) but I loved her so much, and she taught me everything, and having my friend around today, reminded me of the fab times me and my old horse used to have. Tears and tears and tears....

*Hugs* to you!

[*IcyRider*]

Yeh she was :) I lost her and her foal to colic last year,it was well cant even think of a word to explain how bad it was!


Not been an easy thing to move on from :)

[Sam_22]

Yes I do still find it hard to talk about Brandy and I still think about him everyday. But I managed to mention him in a conversation at the yard yesterday without crying. Though I still feel tearful now thinking about him.

Sending hugs your way. Thinking about you. xxx

[ginakatie]

Hi. im so sorry, i remember you replying to one of my posts about colic referencing her.

I know what its like to loose a special girl. You don't just loose an animal, you loose the way that that animal, that friend, knows you, the unique moments and behaviour that only you know. Of course a mention of that horse brings out emotion.

I'm sure you know, that there's nothing to be done to 'get over' her and her foal but in showing emotion, thats a show of respect to her and reiterates that she's not forgotten.

I hope you don't ever feel soft or daft for getting emotional remembering her.

x

[fairlady]

Its certainly nothing to feel soft or embarassed about, it was a massive
event in your life, and one anybody would find difficult to come to terms with. They are certainly not forgotton and quite honestly even
though it was last year its obviously still raw and thats still to be expected.

I am sure part of the reason was because the person who asked was
'a friend' even though you had not seen them in quite a while, still a friend and if we can't have a few tears in front of a friend, then who can we
cry in front of:)

Don't feel bad or silly, there will come a time when you can talk about them and what happened without breaking down but really its still early days and of course you will worry that it may happen again thats only to be expected.:)

[Doeylicious]

Aw hun :( I am sorry the day ended with tears for you.

Sol is gona be FINE as I saw from your other thread she is still alive and quite literally kicking :rolleyes:

I am not sure you were watching the same person ride Sessa, I didn't think I got her going that well at all :o Mum got a lovely pic of Hali, will send it you later and cheer you up :)

[Barney9]

:(
Its so hard. i lost my pony when i was 7- im now 16, but it feels like yesterday... i find it so hard to talk about her, but i want to talk about her, but i dont have anyone to talk to....
I always find it hard when people bring her up as that part of my llife was very difficult for me for other reasons as well as her very sudden, unexpected death. The slightest things remind me of her, ill be sitting in class and someone will mention something about the heart and it sets me off...she died of a hemrage...and i associate a lot of day to day things with her death.
It is hard,i find it so hard sometimes- i think mainly as i never truelly let go of her, i kinda just blocked her out. i put all her things into a box and that was that. i shut it away. dont do that..it may be difficult to talk about now, but im sure it will get easier- but dont block it out. for me now, i find it so hard, i blocked it out, i blame myself...but thats how i dealt with it and all the other things...
It is so hard, and everyone knows what your going through, we have our good memories, and our bad memories...but even the bad memories, are really good ones :)

[Rokx]

Aww, I know that feeling. I lost my cat back in 2002, I had had him since I was a baby and he was my best friend, he was always there for me during some tough times as a kid. I still cry when i talk about him :rolleyes: But i still like to talk about him as he was such a huge part of my life and I never want to forget.
Keep your chin up & get lots of hugs & kisses from Sol to cheer you up :)
xx

[Fabio's Filly!]

I'm terrible with animals anyway. The poor person sat behind me and OH in the cinema probably wished they'd gone see Marley and Me another night as i was trying to hold in my crying but in doing so let out an almighty sob!!

I start to well up even thinking about when the time comes for our dogs and horses now and they're fine! I'll need sedating when that time (touch wood not for a long time) actually comes.

So you're definitely not alone with that!

[palmerlover52]

It is horrible with animals, people never seem to truly understand unless it's their own.

I lost my Mabeldog 3 years ago now - I had her since I was 5 and she really was the best....I talk about her constantly, bore people silly, but I don't care. She was my favourite and everyone better damn know it!

*hugs*

[sjmcc]

oh your just doing the normal i lost my mare about 3 months ago n i was gutted n bought my new lad and hes been with me nearly 2 months and i dont know why but last sunday she was on my mind all day by tea time driveing home i was all of a sudden in floods of tears just thinking back about her i could still get in a state now when i think about her it just realy hit me hard id talk all day long about her and when someone mentions her i always smile then feel my eyes start to water i just loved her so much we had 13 good years together i like my new lad but i never realy talk much about him i know il never have the same feelings i had for her people say it will come in time but i cant ever see it