so, the op wasnt a success...found him dead this weekend

[loopy1]

so, those of you who know ive been struggling with my darling old horse, i found him dead in his field on saturday.

hes been bad over the summer,he had an operation a few weeks ago and i have been nursing him since. recently he was eating better and had put some weight back on, from having to handfeed every mouthful, so to appearances he was looking better but i knew he wasnt right. i knew really.

on friday night he came for his last feed at a cracking trot and on satrday he didnt appear for his lunch. none of the other horses came either which they usually do to see if i accidently feed them instead, so i went looking for them.

the others were at one side of a meadow and didnt look at me and my boy was lay down at the other side. it looks like he just went to sleep as there were no scrabble marks or dried sweat or anything.

the other horses stayed away and i just sat with the body all afternoon stroking his leg and then later they came over and sniffed and looked at him before they went off to their night pasture

i havent been to the field for a couple of days, a freind is checking the others for me as i dont want to look at them just now

[wibble]

I am so sorry to hear about your horsey.

RIP

Take care

x

[Soot]

How very sad for you :( At least it sounds like he went on hiw own terms. How old was he?
The only advice I can offer is *do* let other horses help to heal you. Their matter of factly way of life helped me no end after losing Rambo.

[Virago]

So sorry to hear your news. RIP beautiful horse.

XXX

[Jen0209]

So sorry to hear your news :( Atleast he went peacefully, and wont be in any pain anymore. xxx

[Zayna]

I'm so sorry, how very sad for you, but falling asleep in his field was a lovely way to go for him. Also, his friends would have been able to grieve for him too. I hope it's not too long before you can smile again.

Zayna xx

[SillyTilly]

So sorry to hear this. Thinking of you at this hard time. It was hard enough making the decision to put my 29 yr old mare down that had been in my family since before i was born. I can only imagine what you are going through. Keep your chin up hun

sara.xx

[mikh]

oh no so sorry for your loss

[loopy1]

he was 22, i was his only 'owner', i bought him when i was a kid and he was a foal and he was my first horse and the first horse i ever backed or competed on

i cant imagine not seeing him again though, ive had him more of my life than i havent

we buried him under a tree and im thinking i might plant something, dont know what though, maybe a rose

[Carrie+Morgan]

Sorry to hear this RIP old man, my thoughts are with you x

[HJ]

Hugs :(

[Returning_Rider]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss :( ((((HUGS))))

As the others have said, it sounds like he went in his sleep which is a more peaceful and kinder way to go.

I too hope that you will be able to smile again and as soot as said, the other horses can help you to heal in their own gentle and subtle ways, just by being there.

May he RIP always.

[Samantha Lawson]

So sorry for your loss.......Huge hugs xx

[stroppy-mare]

Millions and Billions of (((Hugs))) Im so so sorry :( x X

[Zayna]

he was 22, i was his only 'owner', i bought him when i was a kid and he was a foal and he was my first horse and the first horse i ever backed or competed on

i cant imagine not seeing him again though, ive had him more of my life than i havent

we buried him under a tree and im thinking i might plant something, dont know what though, maybe a rose

That is a lovely idea. And what a smashing life he's had, having you for his mum all that time. So many poor horses are passed from pillar to post and not always loved and cared for so well.

Try to look after yourself at such a sad time, make sure you're eating and drinking properly and getting some early nights. He wouldn't want you to be sad, or poorly, so do take very good care of yourself love.

Z x

[lobeliaoverhill]

((hugs)) RIP

[suzyqet]

I am so, so sorry to hear of this.

I too have had my girl since she was a foal (now 13years old) so I can only imagine how you must be feeling.

My thoughts are with you at this very sad time.

Sending lots of hugs your way. ((((((hugs))))))

[~*sugarlump*~]

I'm so sorry for your loss :( RIP

[cocopops]

i am so sad to read your news. blue bells grow well under trees.

[lottie.dot]

I am so sorry to hear this.. I really, really feel for you. I just don't know I would cope. I hope you can look back at all the wonderful times together with a smile.
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[loopy1]

i am so sad to read your news. blue bells grow well under trees.


i have bluebells, he is right next to a bluebell glade at the edge of the wood its beautiful when theyre out

i was thinking before hand that id like to have buried him in there but no good for the digger, but hes just on the edge of it

[kayjayhorses]

I am so sorry but it does sound like he drifted off peacefully, I know its painful right now and its something you'll never forget but and you've prob heard this far too many times but time is a great healer - I lost my gelding 3 yrs ago and although I still miss him terribly I can think of him with so many wonderful memories and I can smile rather than cry - take care xx

[JustJas]

I am so sorry to read your post. He sounded a lovely horse.

All I can think is it sounds like he did not suffer at the end.

[madlady]

Your boy sounds like he had a wonderful life and he went peacefully. Hugs to you, it's a horrible time, getting out all the old pics helped me.

[Lolly-lu]

How sad for you, at least it seems he went in peace and you got to spend that last afternoon with him. I did the same when i found my young dog had died (accidently), Just sat with her on my lap. One of the strangest feeling situations to be in.

[lauraandharvey]

so sorry for you
*hugs*
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[Happy Hacker 01]

I'm so sorry to hear that :(

I know it's hard, but try to remember the good times you had with him, and the wonderful life I'm sure you gave him xx

[Murphley Moo]

I'm really sorry to hear this, my heart goes out to you - sending you another hug x

[scotnut]

Take care of yourself, and take your time with everything the loss of an animal is often one of lives most truly painful experiences, who else loves you unconditionally? Be happy in good times and laugh at the bad, but always remember what he ment to you because that will never change.

x

[Abserd]

aw hun, so sorry to hear this. RIP old guy, you were well loved x

[loopy1]

thanks everyone

i never really understood why people come online and post when their horse dies but now i do, you lot are the only people i want to talk to about it right now

im being pretty horrible to my OH without meaning to, hes trying to be nice and hug me but i dont want comforting because i dont want to cry and break down and i just want him to leave me alone to grieve

im trying to keep my mind busy by looking at horsehair jewellery
http://www.tailendjewellery.com/ProductDetail.aspx?ID=13&Page=HorseHairNecklaces

,thinking about what i can plant on his grave, and planning the foal im going to have and whether to call it something similar to my old boys name or to give it something completely its own

[Abserd]

vent away hun, that's what we're here for...big HUGS xx

[abisheridee]

So sorry to hear about your loss, I can't even begin to contemplate how you're feeling :( Sounds like he had a wonderful life with you though, so try to remember the good times- sounds as though there were quite a few!

**RIP Old Man***

[twigs]

how sad, at least he went naturally, i always have a wee cry when i read about peoples pets die RIP horsey! xxx

[FayeObs]

Thinking of you. Its nice you had time to sit with your boy, and you know he went peacefully. Its all you could ask for at this time.

No matter how much you understand it will come at some point, it doesnt make it any easier.

xxx RIP XXXX

[Gem at heart]

I can't even begin to imagine how upsetting it must be for you. Lot's of hugs to you. x x

[Kimmy C]

Again, so sorry for the loss of your boy, you loved him dearly and he loved you for giving him a good home all his life. I feel for you, I too have an old horse (29) and cant imagine how you are feeling right now. All my best wishes and love to you . Kim x

[cassiusbaby]

sorry to hear this, hugs
RIP xx

[storminateacup]

So sorry for your loss. :(

[noodle]

Run free xx

Hugs for you

[Kis Vihar]

So sorry. :( RIP to your much loved horse. xx

Remember - some horses don't know a single day's kindness in their whole lives - your lad was very lucky to have you. (((hugs)))

[Flony_Pony]

Really sorry to hear that, I dread the day when Flora goes :(

*Big Hugs* can't even imagine what its like

[sarchie]

I'm so so sorry. xxx

[loopy1]

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[cloudandmatrix]

omg- poor you- so sorry for your tragic loss- RIP

[newhorsefinder]

so sad, but beautiful too.
I hope you find peace in the way that he left you and in the wonderful memories he left you with.

RIP loved pony.
((((hugs))))

[cinammontoast]

So sorry, hun. Run free, little lad. XX

[rubysmum]

i am so sorry for yr loss - i know its no comfort now - but at least he died surrounded by his herd & in familair surroundings - no deaths are good but his sounds like a dignified end
hugs:)

[SallyLoofah]

at least he went peacefully knowing he was loved. RIP

[Calli]

you did everything you could to make him comfortable and he knew that, sounds like a special horse, sorry for your loss xxx

[stressy]

RIP x

[amandal]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Skippys Mum]

So sorry to hear about your boy - it sounds like you gave him a fantastic life. You were both lucky to have found each other.

Hugs to you (((XXX)))