imabrit_us
4th May 2005, 10:53 AM
I'm going backwards. This is SO frustrating. I've spent much of the last five or six lessons feeling like a rank beginner all over again.
We've been working on deepening my seat, I've had my reins upside down, I've managed to crack keeping my upper body still (horrible fault), I'm maintaining an even contact, I'm able to stop/downwards transition using just my knee and thigh now rather than relying on my reins and I'm a much more confident hacker now.
But . . . I can't get the horse off the leg (again), my balance feels horrible (behind the movement), and I can't seem to keep all the necessary information in my head at once AND act on it all at the same time. So if I keep my hands/upper body still then I'm cocking my head. If I'm not rising from my toes then my knees tend to get tight (not grippy) giving an inadvertent half halt. If my head's on straight and my knees are soft, then I'm hollowing my back tipping forward onto my fork. Things I used not to think twice about I now can't do again. It's driving me crazy. And forget thinking about bend or improving the way the horse is going . . . Sunday I spent almost 40 minutes just trying to get Nimbus off my leg . . . no shapes, bend, straightness exercises . . . just endless, useless transitions. I knew WHAT to do (short, sharp transitions . . . starting w/ halt to walk, walk to trot and moving up to halt to trot, trot to halt, etc.) but I couldn't get her moving off the leg ENOUGH to not have to wallop her and I didn't think about hanging the stick down by my leg (which always works) until half an hour in. Why can't I do more than one thing at once?
I feel so useless.
We've been working on deepening my seat, I've had my reins upside down, I've managed to crack keeping my upper body still (horrible fault), I'm maintaining an even contact, I'm able to stop/downwards transition using just my knee and thigh now rather than relying on my reins and I'm a much more confident hacker now.
But . . . I can't get the horse off the leg (again), my balance feels horrible (behind the movement), and I can't seem to keep all the necessary information in my head at once AND act on it all at the same time. So if I keep my hands/upper body still then I'm cocking my head. If I'm not rising from my toes then my knees tend to get tight (not grippy) giving an inadvertent half halt. If my head's on straight and my knees are soft, then I'm hollowing my back tipping forward onto my fork. Things I used not to think twice about I now can't do again. It's driving me crazy. And forget thinking about bend or improving the way the horse is going . . . Sunday I spent almost 40 minutes just trying to get Nimbus off my leg . . . no shapes, bend, straightness exercises . . . just endless, useless transitions. I knew WHAT to do (short, sharp transitions . . . starting w/ halt to walk, walk to trot and moving up to halt to trot, trot to halt, etc.) but I couldn't get her moving off the leg ENOUGH to not have to wallop her and I didn't think about hanging the stick down by my leg (which always works) until half an hour in. Why can't I do more than one thing at once?
I feel so useless.