Hi everyone.
I'm looking for some advice really and wondered if anyone had an insightful words or ideas to help me out!
I have been off riding since having an operation on my knee in March. From this weekend though my doctor says I can start riding again.
I am really excited about the prospect, at one level, as I've really missed spending time at the stables. On another level though I'm concerned that all of my old confidence problems will return.
I've had on and off confidence issues for the past 18mths. Initially this was caused I think from a pretty nasty fall going down a steep hill on top of the moors near where I kept him. To this day I don't know what caused him to suddenly gallop off but since then I have been nervous about cantering, especially in fields. I did however get back to cantering while hacking as long as I was with a trustworthy companion who could control their horse. Tracks were fine but fields were sometimes dificult for me. Also I didn't really like cantering down any kind of incline.
So that was me doing fairly ok, then this time last year my boy had a horrible injury to his knee in the field which ended up with him being in the Dick Vet Hospital for a month. He got a septic joint and had three op's to flush it out. He almost didn't make it but miraculously pulled through and now a year on he is perfectly sound and you would never know if had a problem.
He was off until the end of the summer when I started riding again, we also changed yards in this time. Since then though I have really struggled with my confidence and can't quite understand why, the new yard is amazing with lots of support, loads of off road hacking and most of it on 'safe' forest tracks but before my op I got to the stage where I couldn't even summon the confidence to canter in the school nevermind on a hack. My OH thinks it is partly the worry about my horse, as when he was ill it was very difficult to deal with and every day we thought was going to be the last, and partly a worry about myself as my knee was very bad and would dislocate if you so much as looked at it.
All I know is that if I ask him to canter now I feel certain that he is going to either bolt off or buck me off. I know that without a severe fright it is unlikely that he will do either, but I just can't shake the feeling. He is a sane but fairly sensitive soul and definetly picks up on it when I am nervous.
So come the weekend how do I conquer this and have a fresh start? I am desparate to put this all behind me. I have tried NLP in the past with not much success. Any ideas would be very gratefully recieved. :help::help:
I'm looking for some advice really and wondered if anyone had an insightful words or ideas to help me out!
I have been off riding since having an operation on my knee in March. From this weekend though my doctor says I can start riding again.
I am really excited about the prospect, at one level, as I've really missed spending time at the stables. On another level though I'm concerned that all of my old confidence problems will return.
I've had on and off confidence issues for the past 18mths. Initially this was caused I think from a pretty nasty fall going down a steep hill on top of the moors near where I kept him. To this day I don't know what caused him to suddenly gallop off but since then I have been nervous about cantering, especially in fields. I did however get back to cantering while hacking as long as I was with a trustworthy companion who could control their horse. Tracks were fine but fields were sometimes dificult for me. Also I didn't really like cantering down any kind of incline.
So that was me doing fairly ok, then this time last year my boy had a horrible injury to his knee in the field which ended up with him being in the Dick Vet Hospital for a month. He got a septic joint and had three op's to flush it out. He almost didn't make it but miraculously pulled through and now a year on he is perfectly sound and you would never know if had a problem.
He was off until the end of the summer when I started riding again, we also changed yards in this time. Since then though I have really struggled with my confidence and can't quite understand why, the new yard is amazing with lots of support, loads of off road hacking and most of it on 'safe' forest tracks but before my op I got to the stage where I couldn't even summon the confidence to canter in the school nevermind on a hack. My OH thinks it is partly the worry about my horse, as when he was ill it was very difficult to deal with and every day we thought was going to be the last, and partly a worry about myself as my knee was very bad and would dislocate if you so much as looked at it.
All I know is that if I ask him to canter now I feel certain that he is going to either bolt off or buck me off. I know that without a severe fright it is unlikely that he will do either, but I just can't shake the feeling. He is a sane but fairly sensitive soul and definetly picks up on it when I am nervous.
So come the weekend how do I conquer this and have a fresh start? I am desparate to put this all behind me. I have tried NLP in the past with not much success. Any ideas would be very gratefully recieved. :help::help: