I may be a bit late to this thread Chev and am very glad to see you back.
I am so sorry about your husband and for the loss of your horse too tho that seems minor in comparison.
My update is i stopped riding for over a year after a fall but Wally helped me get positive again, after some lessons, I got to a new riding centre and I am starting to hack a mare very like my previous share. But younger and much more energetic. And the yard think I am younger and energetic too. At my age this may be a mistake.