It's alright, I feel like virtually every post I've made this week has been whinging about my health
I'm not a complete misery, I promise!
Personally, I would take things easy until your x-rays. Until you know what you're dealing with, you don't know if you're making it worse.
I feel horrible. It's just not fair that I can't ride without being in pain later . It just makes me feel so sad 'cause I do want to ride - really but every time I ride - I get off really really sore. NOT FAIR!
It is completely normal to be frustrated - honest
I'm sure most of my friends and colleagues, who think I cope really well with my disability and it's limitations, would be shocked if they saw me at home on an evening, wailing because everything hurts and
it's not fair. The other classic is "why can't I be
normal?!"
Sometimes you need to let these feeling out, and while our rational minds say we're being silly or childish and moaning about things we can't control, I actually think a bit of release is really important from time to time. My latest sob was because I wanted to wear some pretty sleeves to a party last night, but had to wear my thumb splints and the sleeves didn't fit over the splints at the wrist. It was so silly, but it reduced me to tears!
I agree with Molly34 about tack making a big difference. Even something as simple as the length of my stirrups can have a knock on effect for pretty much every part of my body. If I ride too short, it pushes my ankles into a painful position, which hurts my knee, which hurts my hip, which makes me sit oddly and hurts my back...
Once your x-rays are done, and you know what the problem is and how best to deal with it, hopefully your doctor will be able to suggest things you can do, such as to medicate for the pain, use a back or shoulder support to keep your spine in the correct position, etc.
Good luck for your x-rays