Hi folks. Its as the title says. I am at breaking point and want all my horses (and all my other problems) to just disappear.
I have 3 horses, Sylvie (8yr friesian mare), Daisy (17yr haffy mare) and Kessa(3yr arab filly).
To keep them is roughly £1000 per month and I have to work away from home almost constantly to pay for them along with my other outgoings and debts.
I have no time, no money, no life, no joy, no friends (except you virtual lovelies).
I am always on the edge of worry and stress and I am just plain tired.
The short time I am home e.g 3 or 4 days every 4-6 weeks i am running around like a headless chicken trying to catch up with things that need doing and just feel that spending time with the horses is a pressure not a joy.
I have alway said that they would have a home for life but I am starting to think the unthinkable and wondering how to downsize.
The friesian is a complete sweetheart, started, doing well, a nice hack and beautiful inside and out, registered, imported and with low in-breeding coefficient. She may or may not be pregnant and if she is it will be a guaranteed coloured foal from a very good trad stallion that has won loads so I don't she would be hard to sell ,or loan to a perfect home. (but I love her so much !)
I'm not sure about my arab. She is my dream horse so maybe keep her for another 6 months to see how I feel ? I have someone who may take her for a few months to give me a mental break, or maybe a breeding loan for a couple of years ?
But what do I do with Daisy ? Do you think anyone would want a 17yr old haffy, who has occasional sarcoids (haven't needed treating for the last year), who lives to eat and has just, for the first time ever, come down with a suspected case of Lami (vet coming tomorrow) ? She is a lovable character, tolerates schooling but loves hacking and is nice an steady, safe ride (but not quite novice) and who has just started doing cross country and absolutely loves it.
Do you think anyone would want her ? I don't want money, just a loving safe home for her.
I know it may sound callous but i just can't cope anymore. I have done my best for them, even stayed with the abusive Ex for years longer than I should just so I could keep my animals safe, but now I've run out of, well, everything :-( i have nothing left to give them.
Without them I have little meaning to my life but I could carry out a 1 yr plan to pay off all my debts, have much needed time off between jobs, sort out my cottage and garden, and even write the book I have been trying to write for the last 2 years, in other words, try to rebuild some sort of normal life.
I don't know what to do :-(
I have 3 horses, Sylvie (8yr friesian mare), Daisy (17yr haffy mare) and Kessa(3yr arab filly).
To keep them is roughly £1000 per month and I have to work away from home almost constantly to pay for them along with my other outgoings and debts.
I have no time, no money, no life, no joy, no friends (except you virtual lovelies).
I am always on the edge of worry and stress and I am just plain tired.
The short time I am home e.g 3 or 4 days every 4-6 weeks i am running around like a headless chicken trying to catch up with things that need doing and just feel that spending time with the horses is a pressure not a joy.
I have alway said that they would have a home for life but I am starting to think the unthinkable and wondering how to downsize.
The friesian is a complete sweetheart, started, doing well, a nice hack and beautiful inside and out, registered, imported and with low in-breeding coefficient. She may or may not be pregnant and if she is it will be a guaranteed coloured foal from a very good trad stallion that has won loads so I don't she would be hard to sell ,or loan to a perfect home. (but I love her so much !)
I'm not sure about my arab. She is my dream horse so maybe keep her for another 6 months to see how I feel ? I have someone who may take her for a few months to give me a mental break, or maybe a breeding loan for a couple of years ?
But what do I do with Daisy ? Do you think anyone would want a 17yr old haffy, who has occasional sarcoids (haven't needed treating for the last year), who lives to eat and has just, for the first time ever, come down with a suspected case of Lami (vet coming tomorrow) ? She is a lovable character, tolerates schooling but loves hacking and is nice an steady, safe ride (but not quite novice) and who has just started doing cross country and absolutely loves it.
Do you think anyone would want her ? I don't want money, just a loving safe home for her.
I know it may sound callous but i just can't cope anymore. I have done my best for them, even stayed with the abusive Ex for years longer than I should just so I could keep my animals safe, but now I've run out of, well, everything :-( i have nothing left to give them.
Without them I have little meaning to my life but I could carry out a 1 yr plan to pay off all my debts, have much needed time off between jobs, sort out my cottage and garden, and even write the book I have been trying to write for the last 2 years, in other words, try to rebuild some sort of normal life.
I don't know what to do :-(