Aw, I know what it's like, it is always a shock despite having made the call etc. Give yourself time and take it easy if you can. It will take a while for you to feel right again that's for sure.
she made it easy, trusted us, didn't struggle or fight. She left with a tummy full of food and extra treats, being cuddled and talked to, better than most folks get.
I could not bear to watch her, plus she was likely to fall again as the near fore was weak and could see her stumbling on it. For my own safety, it was time, but not for me as i would have kept her as a pet if i could have. Doing evening stables was awful as she was so BIG there is such a huge Saffy shaped hole.
as sarah the vet said it was the nicest fall to the ground ever, she just did it so gracefully and died being cuddled as we both lay with her holding her and talking to her. being such a big girl we were afraid she might fall on us, but the sedation got her from the gate into the field where she was to be buried and then with the next jab she just went onto her knees in slow motion and lay down. Totally perfect for her, a soft landing onto grass and that was it. Worst bit was the burial but at least she wasn't dragged up the field.
