Not sure if I need a kick up the proverbial bottom and to get on with it or if taking it slowly with patience is best.
This is going to be a long post- I'm sorry! It is more of a vent and an attempt to get things straight in my head!
A few weeks ago I was riding a different horse at my RS who is not long back and can be quite cold backed, especially when you first get on- you have to walk a few strides in jumping position before sitting, but once she gets warmed up she is generally fine.
In the lesson in question, everything was going brilliantly, I was so happy with how she was going- it was just one of those lessons where I managed to harness her young, excitable energy and convert it to a wonderful lesson. She gave me a great trot without being to headstrong. Tried a couple of 20m circles and she had a beautiful bend and was just generally being fantastic- I think you get the gist, it was brilliant. Until I asked for canter. She put in a MASSIVE buck and there was not much I could do: before I knew it I was flying. I can only put it down to her excitement and being young. Needless to say, I did some sort of summersault and landed flat on my back, thankfully I ride in a body protector so the blow was somewhat softened. I got back on though and she settled in the school, and we went out a hack and she gave some smaller bucks but I was ready for her this time and she was kept going forward! I managed over the weekend but decided I could be doing with some stronger painkillers so went to the gp on the monday who sent me straight to a&e (oops ) luckily no fractures but a soft tissue injury to my pelvis and lover spine.
I know this is a pretty decent fall, so I shouldn't be too hard on myself, but you all know that that's not how it works!
I rode a few days after on my trusted Wizard- he is a saint, and although I was still a bit sore, the lesson itself went quite well. I was nervous, but it was how I remember the nerves at my first lesson- nervous and excited. I have been riding Wizard since and been nervous at first but settled into it.
However, today I switched back to Fanta, the mare I have ridden well for months and I couldn't even get a good trot today. She is a typical chestnut mare and so if the rider is nervous so is she. Of course I took confidence from this in the past knowing that I must be a fairly decent rider because I could get her to work really well. But today I was nervous and she was spooked by everything from the sprinklers to the RI, and all because I couldn't get my nerves in check, which then made me more frustrated and tense, which she interpreted as nerves and got more nervous herself and we were just a bit of a mess. My RI was great though and eventually, just at the end, I switched back to Wizard just for a walk and trot so that I could finish with my heart where it is supposed to be and Fanta's beating at a normal rate.
How can I get my nerves sorted?! I know how irrational they are- I have ridden Fanta and done lots of exciting things on her for months!
If anyone has any tips it would be great to hear anything you have to say- constructive criticism or anything else you have to offer.
This is going to be a long post- I'm sorry! It is more of a vent and an attempt to get things straight in my head!
A few weeks ago I was riding a different horse at my RS who is not long back and can be quite cold backed, especially when you first get on- you have to walk a few strides in jumping position before sitting, but once she gets warmed up she is generally fine.
In the lesson in question, everything was going brilliantly, I was so happy with how she was going- it was just one of those lessons where I managed to harness her young, excitable energy and convert it to a wonderful lesson. She gave me a great trot without being to headstrong. Tried a couple of 20m circles and she had a beautiful bend and was just generally being fantastic- I think you get the gist, it was brilliant. Until I asked for canter. She put in a MASSIVE buck and there was not much I could do: before I knew it I was flying. I can only put it down to her excitement and being young. Needless to say, I did some sort of summersault and landed flat on my back, thankfully I ride in a body protector so the blow was somewhat softened. I got back on though and she settled in the school, and we went out a hack and she gave some smaller bucks but I was ready for her this time and she was kept going forward! I managed over the weekend but decided I could be doing with some stronger painkillers so went to the gp on the monday who sent me straight to a&e (oops ) luckily no fractures but a soft tissue injury to my pelvis and lover spine.
I know this is a pretty decent fall, so I shouldn't be too hard on myself, but you all know that that's not how it works!
I rode a few days after on my trusted Wizard- he is a saint, and although I was still a bit sore, the lesson itself went quite well. I was nervous, but it was how I remember the nerves at my first lesson- nervous and excited. I have been riding Wizard since and been nervous at first but settled into it.
However, today I switched back to Fanta, the mare I have ridden well for months and I couldn't even get a good trot today. She is a typical chestnut mare and so if the rider is nervous so is she. Of course I took confidence from this in the past knowing that I must be a fairly decent rider because I could get her to work really well. But today I was nervous and she was spooked by everything from the sprinklers to the RI, and all because I couldn't get my nerves in check, which then made me more frustrated and tense, which she interpreted as nerves and got more nervous herself and we were just a bit of a mess. My RI was great though and eventually, just at the end, I switched back to Wizard just for a walk and trot so that I could finish with my heart where it is supposed to be and Fanta's beating at a normal rate.
How can I get my nerves sorted?! I know how irrational they are- I have ridden Fanta and done lots of exciting things on her for months!
If anyone has any tips it would be great to hear anything you have to say- constructive criticism or anything else you have to offer.