Aw, so no ownership on the horizon? Do hope your confidence comes back, you know it will, it just takes time.
I long time ago (6 years) we were in the middle of searching for a horse for me, OH had already got Joe. Anyway, I had a lesson on a school horse and had a really nasty fall. Knocked all the wind out of me, and really quite frankly was so painful I couldn't hardly get up the next day. At the time, RI made me get back on, and I finished the lesson. But, afterwards I was so sore and sorry for myself (I cried too) I really began to doubt my ability. I mean, lets face it, who comes off a schooly??????!!!!!!!!! Loads of people! That is the answer, and even tho it stuffed me for cantering for months afterwards, I still carried on horse searching. Glad I did, cos shortly after I found "the one". Just thought I'd share. Good luck with your journey to find a ned.