I'm beyond stressing out. I keep raking my brain asking everyone who knows me and sees me with my mare including my vet and farrier. I'm 37yrs young 5.4 and around 14 and half stone max. My mare is a very sturdy leg in every corner 13.3 cob. Iv got back in the saddle after I put 2 stone on and 2 sizes up in clothes after a nasty fall and other numerous health problems. Just to say I do not intend on staying this weight I am shaking it off but it has to be slowly as I would like to keep it off.Iv got over 20yrs experience in the saddle and am well balanced (I use a treeless on her due to her exceptionally flat back and no withers). I got nasty comments off size 6 girls on huge 17h thoroughbred about being too big for my pony. I'm looking for some advice on if I should quit while I'm ahead. We only go for small hacks between half hour and 1 hour long. Am I too much for my little girl.please help.by the way my partner is 6ft 2 stood with her. I have very low self esteem and am really worried what people think of me. My animal's are my absolute life mary has brought me through hell and back literally saved my life twice. The thought of hurting her is beyond thinking about.