It was her time, in the spring when she was poorly and we moved her to living outdoors as her feet couldn't cope with walking on concrete, I hoped I would give her a summer and probably let her go before the winter, depending on how she got on, we almost got there.
She was getting more and more frequent bouts, and pain relief was working less, she had some good quality periods when she was sound and bolshy and happy, and other times when you could see she was sore, in the end the foot abscess finished her off - now how could I have avoided that - I was leaving her feet alone, as she was on grass and the packed mud was supporting her frog as she was so flat footed and dropped.
You can beat yourself up about it all the time, I had her 11 years, she had her first bout 18 months in, then another big one in 2006/7, then her poisoning, then her leg injury new year's eve, we had a lot going on with her, and kept faith with her and kept her going as long as I think/hope she wanted us to. Who knows. I just think on that particular day, when she was in pain, holding a leg up, and the only option was long journey, surgery, box rest, we did the right thing for her.