haven't slept much keep seeing her lovely face, her pricked ears, and her body cold on the ground.
keep going over whether i did the right thing, she was so brave and perky despite everything, if you saw her she was bright, full of it, not a thing wrong with her, happy to eat, happy happy happy.
sadly we spent 4 months healing one injury when in fact what was wrong was something totally different and by the time that was discovered yesterday, it was far too late to save her. i will never forgive myself for not taking her there earlier or getting a second opinion, as while it might have had the same outcome, she would have had a better chance.
i asked the vet outright, would she have made it if you had seen her in september and he said yes, or at least she would have had a much better chance. unfortunately when she went down with laminitis we nursed her here, if we had travelled her, then she would have been x rayed and it would have been found. but we have no facilities here to do x rays like that,and at the time she was so sick we didn't feel it fair to take a horse with full blown laminitis 2 1/2 hours in a rickety trailer.
hindsight is wonderful. but Sasa paid the price for it by losing her life. and it is that which i am finding bloody hard to cope with today, not her death as yesterday i was told in no uncertain terms that her case was hopeless, it was too far gone. but it wasn't always so.
keep going over whether i did the right thing, she was so brave and perky despite everything, if you saw her she was bright, full of it, not a thing wrong with her, happy to eat, happy happy happy.
sadly we spent 4 months healing one injury when in fact what was wrong was something totally different and by the time that was discovered yesterday, it was far too late to save her. i will never forgive myself for not taking her there earlier or getting a second opinion, as while it might have had the same outcome, she would have had a better chance.
i asked the vet outright, would she have made it if you had seen her in september and he said yes, or at least she would have had a much better chance. unfortunately when she went down with laminitis we nursed her here, if we had travelled her, then she would have been x rayed and it would have been found. but we have no facilities here to do x rays like that,and at the time she was so sick we didn't feel it fair to take a horse with full blown laminitis 2 1/2 hours in a rickety trailer.
hindsight is wonderful. but Sasa paid the price for it by losing her life. and it is that which i am finding bloody hard to cope with today, not her death as yesterday i was told in no uncertain terms that her case was hopeless, it was too far gone. but it wasn't always so.