Im wary of even asking as it normally upsets me when people dont understand how it stresses me out and the dilemma it poses but think safe enough on here as all horsey so know what that involves :wink:
Im 39 and hubby 43 and married 8 years. I would like a baby but then again dont want one cos happy with my life as it is and feel too hard with our lifestyle and horses on livery and work. I get up 6.30 amd leave for work 7am with hours drive then home 5-6pm with marking to do most nights and horses on yard that is only 10 mins away but does not do full livery if needed it and not really reliable in the mornings either at times oop:
Hubby could be away 4am on the road as a lorry driver and home 6-10pm. I never know when he is home til 5pm or afterwards. I live half an hour away from my family and from his in opposite directions.
So how do I do a baby basically managing on my own and two horses on livery with one that needs in at nights if not hot sunny day or he self harms causing us stress and expense?? I am often doing the horses on my own at nights with no time for tea after work.
Everyone is one at me that biological clock is ticking and I know hubby would like one anyway but doesnt put pressure on me though i know he has no idea how hard it will be and thinks we will just have to cope.
So we put house on the market 2 years ago and had one offer that fell through cos of us being mucked about by place we wanted so buyer went elsewhere and no offers since and cannt afford to drop price any further as be negative equity plus we need enough to buy somewhere with land obviously.
I am now considering renting house out but cant find equine property to rent or am considering moving to pauls home area and building on his land as his dad has a farm and paul has land but then I have to stop work as too far to travel and so far away from all my friends and family I know i would be lonely but then it no job alot less stress and horses with me. Im just so stressed by it all and its like such a weight on my chest and stops me sleeping. I discussed it with hubby this morning as bth lying awake and then I felt couldnt breathe and crying while he slept oblivious :cry:
Im 39 and hubby 43 and married 8 years. I would like a baby but then again dont want one cos happy with my life as it is and feel too hard with our lifestyle and horses on livery and work. I get up 6.30 amd leave for work 7am with hours drive then home 5-6pm with marking to do most nights and horses on yard that is only 10 mins away but does not do full livery if needed it and not really reliable in the mornings either at times oop:
Hubby could be away 4am on the road as a lorry driver and home 6-10pm. I never know when he is home til 5pm or afterwards. I live half an hour away from my family and from his in opposite directions.
So how do I do a baby basically managing on my own and two horses on livery with one that needs in at nights if not hot sunny day or he self harms causing us stress and expense?? I am often doing the horses on my own at nights with no time for tea after work.
Everyone is one at me that biological clock is ticking and I know hubby would like one anyway but doesnt put pressure on me though i know he has no idea how hard it will be and thinks we will just have to cope.
So we put house on the market 2 years ago and had one offer that fell through cos of us being mucked about by place we wanted so buyer went elsewhere and no offers since and cannt afford to drop price any further as be negative equity plus we need enough to buy somewhere with land obviously.
I am now considering renting house out but cant find equine property to rent or am considering moving to pauls home area and building on his land as his dad has a farm and paul has land but then I have to stop work as too far to travel and so far away from all my friends and family I know i would be lonely but then it no job alot less stress and horses with me. Im just so stressed by it all and its like such a weight on my chest and stops me sleeping. I discussed it with hubby this morning as bth lying awake and then I felt couldnt breathe and crying while he slept oblivious :cry: