Been riding since December and today I did my very first canter and I don't know how I feel about it to be honest. I was so excited and then nervous. I was on the lunge of course and when the horse started cantering, although I felt balanced, I was bouncing super hard on the poor horse's back. I felt so bad for her because I was slamming down hard. But the saddest part for me is that I didn't enjoy it like I thought I would. I was looking forward to it thinking it would be so great and I felt nothing. It wasn't exciting or fun and now that the lesson is over I don't even feel like I cantered today. Sure, I only cantered for 10 seconds or so but still.
Now I'm so disappointed too. I feel like I did really bad (which I absolutely did) and I could have tried harder but I didn't. Also, as stupid as it may sound, I feel like I let down my trainer who thought I could do it. Look, I know I'm not gonna be amazing first time cantering but I'm a perfectionist and a HUGE people pleaser which doesn't work in my favor.
Anyways, sorry for the post. Just wanted to say it to someone.
Now I'm so disappointed too. I feel like I did really bad (which I absolutely did) and I could have tried harder but I didn't. Also, as stupid as it may sound, I feel like I let down my trainer who thought I could do it. Look, I know I'm not gonna be amazing first time cantering but I'm a perfectionist and a HUGE people pleaser which doesn't work in my favor.
Anyways, sorry for the post. Just wanted to say it to someone.