I'm such an idiot!

tbaynancy

tbaynancy

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I feel so stupid today, so thought maybe if I write it down, I'll get it out of my head.

Nice crisp morning today - very windy - but not blistering hot like it has been. Was really looking forward to a nice ride on Rusty without me worrying about him being too hot.

I always walk him around the arena to take a look at everything and let him have a wee (he seems to like doing it in the sand!). Well, he was on his toes, neck stuck up in the air, and prancing around doing mini-spooks at almost every step. I was getting more and more nervous. The wind was rattling the building around, but not like he hasn't heard it before.

Anyway, decided to just pack it in and not try to get on. One of the girls who works in the barn asked if anything was wrong, and since no one else was there, I told her I was too nervous to ride. She offered to lead me around the arena to help get over my nerves.

So, picture this - 51 year old nervous nellie being led around the arena by a 17 year old girl. This is what they do with 5 year olds :redface:

If it was anyone else, I'd be too embarrassed to ever go back there again.

Just when I think things are going so well, something like this happens. I feel very very stupid.

A nice big glass of wine for anyone who finished this.
 
Nothing wrong with being led round - everyone can have an off day - at least you got on and rode.

Please dont beat yourself up about it - life's too short.
 
I'm glad you got on and just remember she is just another adult helping out it doesn't matter about the age.
 
Absolutely no shame in that - just part of your journey to a perfect relationship imo. I'm in the same boat, good days and bad (and you don't appreciate the good unless you've experienced the bad!):biggrin:.
 
When I had to ride my sisters horse when she was away at Uni, I had to be walked around with by my RI or OH!!! She was a bit of a spooky nellie back then and I wasn't used to the lanky long neck, did both of us the world of good to have some company...you shouldn't be embarrassed :)
 
Thanks for the nice words everyone. I'm feeling a bit better about the whole thing. Thank goodness for NR.
 
Good grief woman - I've only ridden Kels in our school twice altogether, and never solo! I only ride her on my own round the yard, and only then if somebody's within grabbing distance

I'm same age as you, the only difference is my leader is 22!

Have to admit though, I get really annoyed with myself!
 
No way should you be feeling daft or silly about this!!!!!!!!!!! I have some confidence atm, but who knows how long that will last???????!
On my first yard I regularly had to be helped by kids as young as 8!!!!!!! They were fantastic YO's kids who knew how nervous I was and boy did they put me at my ease! I have no shame tho, as I didn't care a jot what everybody else thought!!!
Good for you at having a ride - the wind can turn any nervous nellie into a bundle of nerves! I hate the wind with a passion, some days I cope better than others with it, mainly I jib out unless OH makes his cluck cluck chicken noises at me, and I get on and have a go!
 
diamonddogs said:
Good grief woman - I've only ridden Kels in our school twice altogether, and never solo! I only ride her on my own round the yard, and only then if somebody's within grabbing distance

I'm same age as you, the only difference is my leader is 22!

Have to admit though, I get really annoyed with myself!
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Thanks for making me feel better!

Have a hideously long/stressful day at work today, so won't be going out to the barn, but I will go out Tuesday and I will ride Rusty on my own.
 
aww please do not beat yourself up about it

every day is different - we all have positive days and not so good days. Its natural to assess things as well each day and if we are unsure its best to cautious is my opinion!! and there is no harm or embarassment in doing that. I admire people that do

You read the situation and you noted your horses behaviour (alot of people don't). you did what was best for that situation and in turn ended on a good note:dance:
 
denisextilly said:
I would have chickened out alltogether and made the 17 year old get on instead :biggrin: so seriously well done you :bounce:
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She did offer (and I know she would have been fine) but I had a bit of a feeling that if I didn't get on myself, it might blow up (in my mind) to be a bigger issue than it needed to be.
 
denisextilly said:
I would have chickened out alltogether and made the 17 year old get on instead :biggrin: so seriously well done you :bounce:
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Absolutely agree with this comment - would be my choice everytime the old nerves get to me!:frown: I think you did better than I would have done - anytime I get one of those 'oh dear, too windy, too cold, horse too frisky' days I dont even bother to get on!:cold:
 
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