I bet lots of people have viewed your thread Moonbeam and haven't replied not because they don't want to but because they don't know what to say.
I did this yesterday, hoped someone better than me would come along and have something comforting to say or with good advice.
Glad Juniberry has posted but thought I'd stick my tuppence worth in too.

You have been through something most of us here can barely comprehend. I can try to imagine how I might feel in your position, and I can only say I would be in a pit of depression too. You must cut yourself some slack and take things slowly, treat yourself kindly.
It is great that you have kdoran,good friends are worth their weight in gold when the chips are down.
I am sure that you will be able to get your life back to how you want things, albeit with some adaptation, and I applaud you for going on with your riding. Makes me feel quite pathetic with all my stupid mental worries, I will try to give myself a kick up the bum to keep up with you
Have you contacted RDA to see if there is a group in your area that might be of some assistance? Don't know what your horsey aspirations are but from what I understand in my local area (New Forest) they support folks from people riding purely for relaxation and fun through to very serious competitive riders.
It is terrible that you have to fanny about with red tape re the driving. I also wonder whether you might get help from any sort of disability advocacy type service as others must have gone through the sort of hassles you face before and they might have some tips on the driving and all sorts of other things. Just a thought.
Anyway, thinking of you and will be looking out for your updates!
Great name by the way - Moonbeam is sort of my OH's pet name as it is a play on his name

how sad am I?
Keep your chin up and don't let the b*stards grind you down
