So I bought my new pony four months ago and I have fallen off nine times not broken any bones. Things are starting to go backwards. We only have an outdoor school where we keep her and she stands square not wanting to go in every single time. When I get into the school and ride her for a lesson my legs she ignores and my instructor says use the whip and she cow kicks every time ears back. I don’t like whipping her but my legs are probably not strong enough. When my instructor gets on her she said she is the easiest pony to ride she has been riding for 30 years. Previously she was owned by a teenage girl and a younger girl went to pony club jumping et cetera. I took her to show jumping and dressage I am an older rider and I have fallen off in total nine times. I am losing confidence fast and I now do not look forward to riding her at all. She always spooks at one end of the school where the hedge blows and the dark corner where the apple tree is and this really again knocks my confidence. In the school she bolted away from a deer she saw and planted me on the floor. I am having two lessons a week for two hours and I don’t feel we are bonding or improving. I don’t know what to do with her in the school and when I take her in there she is reluctant to do anything. We can only go out walking on hacks as the ground is too hard. She doesn’t have any back issues or health issues as my instructor rides her At the beginning of the lesson to wake her up. What am I going to do I feel I’m at a crossroads. We only have an outdoor school. She loves jumping BS points. She is 14x