I had a really horrible time yesterday. I could hide it. But I am in trouble.
My normal escort was off sick and I was allocated instead an RI who is a knowledgeable and excellent teacher. When I do ride with her, I learn things.
As we set out she began to upbraid me - I'd insulted her by riding out with her only because my normal girl was ill. I was socially inept, failed to treat her with consideration; she attacked everything about me, claiming I had "issues" at the RS and I had failed to appreciate her support. She went on and on, reprimanding me for my failings and accusing me.
This is the second time she has done this to me. Last time was our second ride, abut two years ago.
If I try to defend myself it enrages her further, and my defence is weak. Because of course it is true. She was not my first choice and (I didnt tell her this) I had asked the staff in the office whether I couldnt ride with someone else? I didnt handle it perfectly, but it was none the less horrible.
I think the riding school versus own horse question is hard. So long as my favourite mare is well and I am riding two or three hours a week with someone agreeable, I dont have much incentive to buy a horse.
But it is a fragile arrangement built on white lies and total subordination. Which no longer comes easy to a competent old woman like me.
My normal escort was off sick and I was allocated instead an RI who is a knowledgeable and excellent teacher. When I do ride with her, I learn things.
As we set out she began to upbraid me - I'd insulted her by riding out with her only because my normal girl was ill. I was socially inept, failed to treat her with consideration; she attacked everything about me, claiming I had "issues" at the RS and I had failed to appreciate her support. She went on and on, reprimanding me for my failings and accusing me.
This is the second time she has done this to me. Last time was our second ride, abut two years ago.
If I try to defend myself it enrages her further, and my defence is weak. Because of course it is true. She was not my first choice and (I didnt tell her this) I had asked the staff in the office whether I couldnt ride with someone else? I didnt handle it perfectly, but it was none the less horrible.
I think the riding school versus own horse question is hard. So long as my favourite mare is well and I am riding two or three hours a week with someone agreeable, I dont have much incentive to buy a horse.
But it is a fragile arrangement built on white lies and total subordination. Which no longer comes easy to a competent old woman like me.