Hi everyone,
Its been a little while since I posted so thought I would update you all on how we have been getting on.
Things have been going generally well and we have had serious incidents since I started riding again. I have to say that hacking is still a worry for me and I need more practise out and about in managing my nerves. A friend and I are going out tonight, Bob and her pony are great friends and I am going to try to push myself and go to the part of the woods which are steeper tracks and not as familiar as the easy ones near the yard. I'm actually starting to get those horrible sicky butterfly feelings as I type this and think about it so I must concentrate on staying calm and keeping relaxed as much as I can....quick G&T before I leave?!
In the past Flipo's mum has talked alot about repetition being the key to breaking the cycle of confidence problems and I really do agree. Lately I have been concentrating hard on our school work and its paying off but the hacking has suffered. I guess thats just how things go though and I'm trying to hold onto the thought that if I were to concentrate on it solidly for a few weeks the confidence would come back.
So on the schooling, Bob has real issues with straighness and balance and this means his trot is truly awful and getting him up into the bridle is very difficult. Since my knee started to feel better I have really ramped up my lessons, my RI says she can now be really tough on me since I'm not injured anymore!, and we've worked really hard both ridden and lunging. Now we are at the stage where he is really using his back and I'd say on average if I'm trotting a 20m circle I'm getting about 50% of it in a proper outline and really using himself.
This is a major achievement for me, I have never really been taught how to school properly/bring a horse on and although I'm a good general rider I was doing all sorts of things wrong. To have taken my big, wonky horse who has had alot of time off due to injury and have him now looking like a proper fancy horse if fab and I've taken alot of confidence from it. My RI is amazing and I can't suggest enough to get someone to help you that you really trust and really knows their stuff.
Last night Bob had one of his strops, usually occuring about once a month when my big donkey IDx turns into a thoroughbred stallion. He has just turned 8 but at 17.2hh has taken alot of time to mature and still has the brain of a 3 yr old! You never know when its going to happen but generally it is lunging that starts it off. It was a hot night and when we got into the school all ready to lunge he wanted to roll in the sand...fair enough he wants to get rid of the sweat and have a good itch but not while he's meant to be working. So I sent him into a trot and wouldn't let him walk = very pissed off horse. He objected by bombling round at a near gallop while trying to get down to roll, bucks, rears and general nonesense. Last time he had one of these episode it was over a mare in season and actually got away from my RI and jumped out of the school.... So we swiftly got the line through his bit rings and had more control. RI then exclaims "great this is the perfect time to get some really good stuff out of him"...ya think..!??? So we taught him how to go from trot straight into rein back on the lunge and by the end of it canter into rein back. I was amazed and he got it really quickly. It was very hard work for him and he soon realised the error of his ways!! RI was 100% right, when they are hyped up like that and on their toes they are very receptive to learning difficult things....just don't ask me to get on him!
So back to the schooling. Much of this has been alot of hard work, mainly lots and lots and lots (and then some more) sitting trot until we get what we need from him and the resulting all over body aches..thank god for my new spa bath. It has though also started to improve my seat and to get what we need I am having to work on a very loose rein with very little contact. This was very hard at first, I realised I rely on my reins way too much, I have to really push him on to use himself and trust him not to bomb off into canter (my no.1 fear) has been tough. This was his main evasion tactic before, as it was easier to canter than really use himself in trot and what caused a fall in the school just before I stopped riding for my knee op. But we are getting there (touch all wood based items).
The short term aim is a clinic that is being run at our yard next weekend. This will be a tough 2 days of work and I have to say I am worried. There will be 5 horses coming to the yard that Bob doesn't know and I'm worried about how he will react to them (one is a stallion although I guess I should just be glad he's not a mare!). Although generally we work in groups of two so hopefully that will help. My biggest fear though is having to canter infront of others...well actually canter at all!! We have to write down our wish list at the start of the clinic and I am so undecided as to whether I should put this down. You lovely people advised me a few months back to not even think about the cantering thing and only do it when I really want to. I'm not sure I'm really there yet and haven't cantered in the school or on a hack since then although I'm hopeful at some point this will come. So, should I aim to canter next week or not? There are plenty of other things we can work on but I'll be honest I do feel pressure to just get on with it/fit in/show people I am fine....... I think I know what you will all say
and I'm sorry for the long post but it feels so good to share how I'm feeling xxx